Monday

why hello everyone,
its been a while but people don't even read this so whatever.idk why i even have one of these.
UGH!!!

so i found someone who likes me :)
she is awesome.
Her name is Kaitlyn...
she is beautiful.

I had a really meaningful conversation with my friend Karasyn the other day...
i cried like a little girl.
i just hate being so soft.
i wish i could play football,
or baseball,
or anything that made me manly.
i mean sure I'm a guy but i just wish people didn't look at me and think.. "HOMO"
idk i guess it really doesn't matter what people think of me because we all have our opinions.

i wish that i could forget about things going on right now.
i wish i could just focus on God.
i wish i was done with school and everything.
I'm kind of ready to grow up and not live at home.
I'm sick of my mom's smoking and drinking...
i just want to grow up.
i think its crazy how these days are now.
how i once worried about if i got to go outside and play but now all i worry about is Girls and stupid stuff.
i still cant drive,
my mom gets mad because she chose to live on THE OTHER SIDE OF TOWN!!!
so i cant ever get a ride from anyone!
ugh i dislike how I'm living right now!
I'm so sick of everything.
for real.idk...
Here is the deal....
I am gonna be funny.

I still hurt inside,
some days i just sit and cry,
I'm living a lie,
trying to be happy,
I'm sad i cant deny...
ugh I'm so sick of my own poetry too.


well 1st block is almost over soooo...........
thanks for reading.