I'm Feeling Super Alone

As of now I feel really alone.
She doesn't know but I guess
deep down I still want her.

As much as I say i don't,
I see her,
I hear her sweet voice,
I want her.

But being human,
I screw stuff up,
then i throw out, "sorry" like its molded bread.

Nobody understands how bad this hurts,
but I try and try to cover it up the best I can.

How on earth can someone think they love something one minute,
to the complete opposite the next minute?
THEY CAN'T!
YOU SHOULD HAVE KNOWN
I WAS LYING WHEN I SAID I WAS DONE!!!

Because I miss you,
and I want you back,
I want to hug you,
I want to flirt with you,
I want you to want me like you once did.

I hate crying,
I hate hiding my feelings,
I hate trying to find someone
only for them to be the cover up.

Why Can't I Get This Right?

Help....